healing

okay now.... am out of words .. am out of thoughts... system isn't fixed.. coz aside from the exhausting work at the hospital.... i can't get rid of seeing you everyday... oh how i wish not to see you coz every time i am, you... you remind me and bring back that event when boy met girl but wasn't a love story...

oh how i wish to be blind .. so that i wont see any of the upcoming pain that you ;only you has the power to do so. that extraordinary ways of yours that changes me... you were dumb you idiot... you are a damn guy who don't want to lose me and her at the same time.. but hey don't worry am healing.. coz am seeing and finding your stupidity each day , and to tell you its turning me off.. so don't expect me anymore to praise you...any word of appreciation from me would be impossible 'coz after all-- yes we were the best! we were and not anymore.... not now... and will never be again forever!

so goodbye to you and to everything that i knew.... i'll be fixing my heart so soon , coz the moment that yo gave my heart to me again , you brought it wounded and torn... and am'a standing up too... after you had pull me down from your hell which i thought was heaven. just spare me ______________, it takes time to heal and at that certain moment that i am really over you!! i slap you not anymore with my bleeding heart.. but by this tough & rough heart which you personally molded.. thank you.......thank you=)

February 18, 2010 - Thursday

9:01 PM