phonetic phoolishness

IF YOU pronounce HEAD,DEED and BEAD.

you'll hear the last word rhymes with DEED,

and in this "poem" you will find

Many items of this kind,

for instance:

Dear and fear and hear but bear

Gear and tear but wear and tear

Yeast and east and pleased but pleasant,

Beat but breast and please but pleasant,

Meat and peat but sweet and great

(The last word rhymes with Freight and weight.)

Quite different again is height,

Which sounds like BITE, INDICT and light

the next line should be read with care:

the praying payer says his prayer.

Bean and lean and mean but meant;

Note "g" in Get , in gem and gent.

Vice but crevice-advice-device,

Lice but malice-police-concise,

We say dreamt but also dreamed

(the last latter rhyming with esteemed),

Crew and blew and new but sew,

Cow and how but sow and row

Measles does not sound like measure:

The same applies to treason - treasure

not anymore

long before when tasked to answer a brief introduction to myself, i would always write these lines : i wished with all my heart to be good.. but i am young and i have passion and i was alone, completely alone when i was finding the good"

truth is am not anymore. last April 20 of year 2010 i was caught up flying on clouds up above. yes, it was the day i found out that i wasn't flying alone anymore. that i don't need to be afraid , that i have someone with me that will surely keep me safe and that i have a place called HOME.

and as i let myself see the changes i chose. it turned out not to be something good but really really great. i literally had my wish granted ( proof that it wasn't bad at all that i had once believed by the magic of the shooting stars). the changes wasn't bad.. it was way different from what am i used to. and honestly, am happy with the changes it brought up. i haven't regretted even a single of it because the changes did not just awakened me from my sleep but also molded my personality holistically.

i have nothing more to ask. he was he best part of me for no one can be as gentle, as caring, as lovable as sweet as HIM ♥ ♥ ♥

whose to blame???

here it goes:

so there was this someone , whom we really don't know, that was texting our friend "Jam" some insults and threats. so as an usual friendship act we checked everyone's phone hoping and praying we would find that stupid person. i was at the girl's CR then when i saw NESSA , i eventually checked her phone and said "do you know this number? "she said "no". and so i added, "can you check up Oliver's phone if he knew whose number is this since ALL WERE PRIME SUSPECTS." and so she said yes..... and bohoh!!!

days have passed and oliver txted me furiously saying i was a dumb-ass and a stupid bitch... that i was betraying him and accusing him that he was that person who was txting Jam......

here we go! ( i only have 5 points to consider)

point #1 : i never doubted Oliver cause if i did... i should have told anyone that he was

point#2: i knew him.. he's never like that

point#3: okay. okay. it was a mistake of asking nessa to check olive's phone . i should have done that myself....

point#4: i have never dropped a name.. and to whomever who dropped it first, maybe it was him or her at the first place....

point#5: i have never doubt their Fidelity they have doubted mine

after all then......

WHOSE TO BLAME????

She Said I Will Be Strong

every day she walks along

laughed at, ridiculed, pointed at

tears always threatened her eyes

but she refused to let them pass

she kept her head held high

as the people still stared

she wouldn't let them know

that she really cared

she could not let them know

how much her heart felt pain

so one day she stepped outside

into the pouring rain

she was sick of it

she had had enough

she couldn't take anymore

she just wasn't that tough

a blade was in her arm

just the usual act

of teenage self harm

when she was done, she went inside

and sat on her soft bed

thoughts of her past haunted her

and filled up in her head

she thought of all the times

she had ever done wrong

and said " i will be strong"

her talking to the reflection

went on for about a year

bu she felt so better

when she assured the girl in the mirror

but one day it was TOO MUCH

so she put on her favorite song

slit her wrists, looked into the mirror

and said " i will be strong"

and then slowly she died

looking into the mirror

wondering to herself

if anyone would care

the note she had written

brought tears to everyones eyes

and they all felt guilty

for not hearing her cries

on this piece of paper

she had told them all her thoughts

of the girl who reassured her

after she had fought

it told about her mirror

and of the girl inside

and how they were alike

because they could not hide

if she would have known

what they felt for her note

sh wouldn't have killed herself

for this is what she wrote

"the people in this world

don't really give a care

and my only friend

is the girl in the mirror

for we are both so tired

because no matter how we tried

we could not be perfect

so together we died

at least we went together

for she was my best friend

we stood by each other

even until the end

she knew how to encourage me

and did it all along

for everyday i heard her

she said " i will be strong"

take a look at your reflections

maybe you can hear

because reflections know your happiness

your sadness and your fear

that is why mines gone

for it was too much to bear

and so she died with me

from feeling my despair

i know my best friend told me

that i would be strong

but it doesn't matter

because we are both gone"

who are you?

you.. yes you.. what's your name again??

have we met before?

because from all the things that you have said

it felt like you have evolved into someone unreal.

ah. yes i do remember

that i had called you friend;

we shared funny moments, we shared nice events.

i do remember too one day

that we were drinking like drunkards

as if we can't be moved, that were friends no matter what.

i remembered too when you cried on me one day

because you heart was broken

wounded and weak

and as a friend i was there..

consoling the lonely heart of yours.

but what have you just said?

i have betrayed you?

or better say it was you at the very first place...

you never left me when i was in gloom

and so am i when you are not in tune

but you have doubted my fidelity

you started talking bad things

you start staining my name

and so who betrayed?

and who was betrayed?

again, you! yes you?

you are guilty beyond reasonable doubt...

before i thought i knew you

but know

come again... who are you????

the continuation....

i inculcated it unto my mind that fairytales aren't true neither is Prince.. but who would expect that an 18 year old girl to find hers? after closing every single possibility of love to come on her way, after burning all thoughts of happy ending and after neglecting the power of Cupid... he came back not with a silver shining volvo bt with that white horse.

i had ate my words when i let him come back and be a part of my life again. .. and yes, there was commotion; friends left me, people judged me and the environment wasn't friendly enough to accept what were they seeing...yet, when two individuals decided to be one in the bond of love no one could tore them apart! yes... when that two individuals decided to walk in that fire bare-foot isn't the sweetest part but that part where despite the pain, the ache , the sorrow... they hold hands and never let go.

and after surpassing that path of fire... what more would we face? mmmmmmm..i don't know for now but i'll write it for the continuation:)

May 2, 2010

9:05am

remembering..

remember the day we fell in love?
vowed to heaven and of the stars above
remember the day we sang the same song?
the rhythm of love we had for so long.

i remember you when i close my eyes and sleep
'coz the last time i checked you said me you'll keep
i remember you when i wake up each morning
'coz the last time i checked our days weren't raining.

do you remember me when you check your phone?
because i remember you when i sit down alone
do you remember me when you have your game?
because i remember you when were still out of flame.

well i remember us , with all that lust
those naughty nights we'd thought will last
i remember too, that day we touched
those moments that we haven't checked our watch.

so now all i can do is to remember
our moments from late May to December
remembering those days when were so clever
out of the blue, when were still together!


march 15, 2010 - Monday
9:53a.m.

untitled

every girl wants a beautiful happy ending. every girl aspires that perfect prince with a silver shining Volvo. every girl plans her perfect wedding dress. every girl wants a happy ending.

i was young; i had passions and life to me was magical. i was waiting for my destiny, letting fate come my way- que sera sera! i have my criteria's, dreams, aspirations for that perfect love story , oh how i long for it. so my every day was full of love, full of hope and full of life. i was constructing my own love story one day when he came; he was smart , he was cool, he was persistent. and that moment i knew he was what i was waiting for. he met my criteria you see and i didn't ask for more. hand in hand we built our mansion- our home. were in-love and we were happy. we vowed the words of everlasting love. we had our world-- our different realm.

but one day someone knocked our door and as we opened it, we saw that commotion was astray. we then realized that we were locked up in our castle that the reality we forgot. then someone, whom i didn't expect to come, came. and right then i knew that while i was busy doing mine.. and we were busy doing ours, i made a simple mistake; i wasn't her queen, but he was indeed my king. and as the truth came out, i just didn't know what to do, i wasn't given a clue. my magical world turned dark, my lively life turned dull. there's no such thing as fate, nothings meant and destiny's a lie and i can prove that!

i was young then but now am fully grown, right then i knew i would be someone else. undeniably, i know that i had cried for love... i begged for love... and i prayed for love. i was left alone with ache, sorrow and pain. but nevertheless i am thankful, because that pain was the only reminder of him, cause when he left, he took everything even my soul with him resulting me to live life soullessly. living life without any reasons why.

"it wasn't a happy ending" at last i said "nor a so-called love whatever".

march 3 2010- Saturday

1:45 p.m.

healing

okay now.... am out of words .. am out of thoughts... system isn't fixed.. coz aside from the exhausting work at the hospital.... i can't get rid of seeing you everyday... oh how i wish not to see you coz every time i am, you... you remind me and bring back that event when boy met girl but wasn't a love story...

oh how i wish to be blind .. so that i wont see any of the upcoming pain that you ;only you has the power to do so. that extraordinary ways of yours that changes me... you were dumb you idiot... you are a damn guy who don't want to lose me and her at the same time.. but hey don't worry am healing.. coz am seeing and finding your stupidity each day , and to tell you its turning me off.. so don't expect me anymore to praise you...any word of appreciation from me would be impossible 'coz after all-- yes we were the best! we were and not anymore.... not now... and will never be again forever!

so goodbye to you and to everything that i knew.... i'll be fixing my heart so soon , coz the moment that yo gave my heart to me again , you brought it wounded and torn... and am'a standing up too... after you had pull me down from your hell which i thought was heaven. just spare me ______________, it takes time to heal and at that certain moment that i am really over you!! i slap you not anymore with my bleeding heart.. but by this tough & rough heart which you personally molded.. thank you.......thank you=)

February 18, 2010 - Thursday

9:01 PM

because i am just a rebound love

it's been a month and 5 days since we said goodbyes.. it's been a month and 5 days of grieving .. and it's been a month and 5 days of wanting you back! i know you wont ever read this ( but am hoping you will) but i just wanted to tell you that am so thinking of you today.. yes, you-- isn't it funny that you have moved on so easily and i am left shuttered in here because am just a REBOUND love--yet you managed to let me feel that i was your one and only and the only princess on your castle.

i love you and i love you so much! and i want to shout it out loud that i love you still and i want you still.. i still want your sadistic actions, your being bossy, your being tight and your being jealous.. i still want it when we fight at phone almost every night and will end up singing that song of ours.. i still want it when you share your intelligence to my lacking wisdom even though i always end up being corrected by you. i still want it when you want me to change the way i laugh 'coz you said my laughter's are quite annoying. i still want it when you are insisting that my being oozy is irritating and you want me to eat roasted chicken and those street food you want. i still want it when you get jealous with my books and i envy with your PSP. i want it still when you want to see me wear nothing but your t-shirt on and i still want that kiss-- that feeling that we own each other and that you are mine and i am yours..

but because i was just a REBOUND love it was easy for you to give me up-- because you were distracted about the fact that the one i replaced( or did i?) showed up crying and hurting because of what we have become. she was never yours and you were never hers-- and at that moment i really wanted to let you know that "hey beb, you are mine".. we had our forever, weren't we?? but you felt cold..uttered no word..and i was left untold!

so foolishly i cried and prayed to die because when you came you revived this boring soul of mine and when you left, you took everything with you and left my soul wounded and since i don't want my soul to be with me without you anymore..you 'caused me so much pain and literally crashed and torn my life upside down . you broke every pieces of me but still i cried in silence in the corner of the world, quiet, because i love you and because i was just rebound love.

now am living life without having reason why, wandering around hoping i can at least forget you and banish you in my head---- why did i ever get to meet you when all i received was nothing but pain.. why didn't you try to defend me even if as your former little friend-- because it was too difficult to defend you while defending my self at the same time.

so it's been a month and 5 days to be exact.. you are okay now while am still having trouble sleeping.. a month and 5 days of an agonizing silence from both of us still i love you more than a month and 5 days because yes--- i am a rebound love!!!

February 16, 2010 - Tuesday

10:06 PM

behind the sweetest name

They say Love is everything, love is a feeling that once you’ve experience it you'll be at nirvana. when I asked my cousins why were they so happy, they answered me Love, when I asked my classmates what was the subject of their chatting, they answered me Love and when I asked my friend why was she crying she answered me the same word – LOVE.

If love is a sweet feeling, then why others cry or try to kill themselves because of this tremendous feeling? My friend told me once that she’s hurting too much by loving the person who’s not even interested on her, I told her to stop loving but she told me its hard, because we can’t choose for whom our heart will beat. My other friend then told me that he’s already off with his girlfriend but everytime he sees the girl is smiling; he then realized that he is still in love with her and can’t live life without her.

I mean, it’s not wrong to fall in love it’s normal but if you feel that it’s hurting you too much, LET Go. When love isn’t enough Give up and try to move on if the one you love is not interested with you anymore. Love a person with open eyes and open mind, its not a crime if you love, what makes it bad is when you come to a point of hurting yourself. Remember that our head is above our heart to reminding us that we shouldn’t let our heart rule over our head. Heart is the center of our body but it beats on the left, maybe just so maybe it’s the reason why heart is not always right. Love is not just having someone special love has its many ways.

to love and be loved is a feeling everyone of us wants to feel but we should also consider the fact that if we love, it has many consequences ; it may be loving the person at the wrong time or loving the wrong person at the right time. No three words have greater power than I Love You. It can totally change your life in a second. The power of Love is such that no one can be immune from it, no matter how much they protest. So be careful in loving because the one you love has the power to let you feel the sweetest happiness but has utmost power of letting you feel the worst heartache you can’t imagine. Don’t look for love just because it’s lonely to be watching movies alone or because it’s sad to eat meals on your own, because it’s nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days. Look for it to be accepted, mo matter how sloppy we dress, how clumsy we eat for having bad hair or how you really is. Love is an act to be accepted who you are it is not by doing all the risk to be accepted, you don’ need to change because of love. Remember, when the heart is willing to love, it will find thousand ways but if it’s not it will find thousand excuses.

so me???? I see love when my lola makes coffee for lolo every morning, when my mom wakes up early to cook for our breakfast, when my uncle fetches his pamangkins from school, when my siblings call to check if I’m okay, when people eat lunch together behind the bust schedules, when my cousin kisses the hurting finger of her baby and when goo friends hang-out despite the distance..Now, who said love was just for couples?

maturity...

most of us don’t want to be alone, it is true indeed that no man is an island and that man can’t live life ALONE...but sometimes we have to not because we ran out of companions but because when were alone,realization pops out. thus,by being alone we unconsciously open close doors and sees the invisible.

have you tried being alone? I mean… is there a time in your life that you want to escape friends, reject parties or isolate thyself because of an unknown reason? don't worry... it's normal! because sometimes, psychologically our system needs to reminisce the past, think over the present and be ready for the future…

being alone doesn't mean we don’t have friends to rely on, doesn't have any colleague to have fun with and doesn't have anyone to be it's just that being alone is a compensating factor of our weak system when everything makes commotion. remember that being alone is a choice, yes we choose to be alone.

being along is a part of maturing, not because we don’t want to mingle but we want to be independent enough to face the reality of life… yes, in being alone we gain independence.. the independence we need to survive the world we live in. Remember, we are the only ones who can decide for what’s going to happen with our life.. we need to stop relying to anyone and learn to trust ourselves.. and move on with our life following God’s errands. Because being mature is accepting the fact that no one is there to rescue you, everything you are and everything you have depends only to you..